my grandfather

Well these last two weeks have been pretty crazy. it's been very hard being away from home when something like this happens. I think most people that read this know that my grandfather passed away. Prior to going I had taken it into consideration that it could happen, but there was no way to prepare for myself when it actually did.
To hear about my grandpa while he was at home was heartbreaking. Wondering what is happening, how he is doing, how he is feeling, is there really anything I can do if I was there. Dealing with losing someone so close to you is the hardest thing in the world, actually being on a different part of the planet when someting like that does happen is the absolute worst.
I am so grateful for this experience and being in another country for 6 months. I am experiencing things that I probably never will again. It is truly amazing. But there is no substitute for family and being there in times of need. Dealing with the guilt of not being there for my grandpa and the rest of the family is soo hard. But I will work through it just like everyone else dealing with losing grandpa. He truly was amazing and touched everyone that he came across.